Weed and my experience
Drugs are/were simply a point of escape for me. I wanted to escape this reality and feel good. I wanted to be able to just sit there and do nothing at all, and still feel good. After all, its was a great way to be bored without feeling bored. It also made things that were fun to do, EVEN BETTER. Not to mention it was "cool" LOL. But what does the word cool imply. To myself, the word cool would be something that is accepted as the best way to apply yourself as according to what your peers and surrounding environment believe to be acceptable. Pot to me was a cool thing to do. Its was a cool experience. It was a cool way to escape reality. It was a cool way to feel. It was a cool thing to do to have a little fun in this world. But at some point in my life i realized it wasn't so cool anymore. It had become a necessity. After awhile i realized that i was becoming addicted/dependent to pot.
I didn't realize that one could become addicted to it. Without it i could not sleep, eat, or relax or have fun. I looked at why this was so and found that pot does the exact opposite of these things, at least from my experience. Its made me feel relaxed, tired and hungry and i was high all day everyday. I was smoking about an ounce a week, so my body was used to feeling tired, hungry and relaxed all day long as i was high all day long(for about 10 years). So naturally it made sense to me that if your used to feeding yourself something on a regular basis, your body/mind will feel hungry for it after awhile. This made it hard for me to consider ever quitting. Which when i look at it now is just me not wanting to face the manifested consequences of my own actions. After all its easy to get yourself into a mess but not so easy to get yourself out, to the point where one might not even consider stopping due to the extent of pain one might have to walk through. But i did and it sucked!
I ended up feeling nauseous for like 10 days. I could not sleep for 2 months. I felt anxious for about 2 weeks. I had the most unbelievable night sweats you could ever imagine. I had lost interest in just about everything that i used to enjoy. It was a rough ride to go through i tell ya and i promised myself to never have to go through it again...BUT...after bout 2 years i fell. I had started smoking pot again and to the point where I had gotten myself right back to where i started. I wasn't smoking quite as much as before but never the less, it was all the same. So fuck me right? Wrong!
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I had discovered something called self forgiveness. I had learned that I had to look and i mean really look....self honestly look... at what exactly i was doing to myself. I had to look at all the points of why i was smoking pot and why i didn't want to give it up (you know, all the shit that goes through my head when i want to blaze up and the excuses i make up for not wanting to quit). Then i had to forgive myself for all these points. After that I had to live/walk this forgiveness by stopping all these little thoughts that come up in my head and not giving into them.
What i found was it didn't 'cure' the physical withdraw of not being able to sleep, ear, or relax. My physical experience of quitting was more or less the same as the first time i quit only not quite intense due to the fact that i wasn't smoking quite as much and for a shorter period of time. (about 2- 3 years)
One major point was extremely different though. My thoughts. In just 3 days of stopping my thoughts and forgiving myself for participating in them...(oh i just want, need, have to get high etc.) i was free. I had just went ahead and accepted that for the next few weeks, i was going to be feeling a bit uncomfortable....no big deal, it will pass in time. So i walked through the consequences, i embraced them and i stopped. It was as simple as that. Self forgiveness works!
No more will i subject myself to the belief that i need pot to live happily. FUCK THAT.
Drugs will end with an Equal Money System
Ok. So why will drugs end in an equal money system?
In an equal money system your funds will be deleted from your account when you make purchases. There will be no transfer of funds to the one selling the goods, This will insure that no one will be able to profit off another being. Why? Just have a look. Everyone will already have enough money to live as they please and everything will be affordable for everyone. There wont be any need for profit to exist. ------ Go here for a more detailed explanation ------http://equalmoney.org/
So, how exactly are drug dealers supposed to make money when you can't transfer your funds to them. Are you gonna just give away all your shit to get the drugs? Not likely. You yourself and drug dealers alike while have access and the ability to afford all the shit they want. So ain't no drug dealer gonna take yo shit.
You think drug addicts have the know how or the balls to produce their own drugs? Even if they do, by the time they finally grow a pot plat they will most likely not have the 'need; to get high. It takes a long time to produce pot and other drug alike. Besides, why would you consider doing drugs all day long when you'd be free to participate and discover all the cool shit to do here on earth. Think about it! Drugs would end up becoming extinct! Good clean quality fun would evolve. Just look at kids, they always know how to have fun and they don't need drugs. In fact, due to the nature of our money system, i noticed how my childhood expression became suppressed and i had forgotten how to enjoy myself. So i started doing drug. Well shame on me!
Equal money, check it out. Its awesome! -- http://equalmoney.org/
Remember, there is nothing more valuable than life. We are all here living. So really consider what kind of world you live in and question it. Do we as human beings really value life?
Self forgiveness, Value life here as all as one equally --- http://desteni.co.za/ --- its awesome too. ;)
